06 Aug 2011 - day 3

I woke up this morning somewhat dragging.Now that I'm at work my right inguinal lymph nodes are *throbbing* and sending diffuse pain down my leg. I'm not liking this at all.

Today is my first day taking phentermine. I read up on the stuff on PubMed and I dunno.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000605/
Frankly, I don't think I need to take an anorectic unless I have zero fat in my diet (which, based on all the fat-free cheese and soup and food they are pushing, Swedish seems to be anti-fat). I'm not really all that hungry as long as I have a bolus of fat in the morning and a slow stream of fat over the day. I rarely eat sweets or bread. I *hate* potatoes and pasta. My weaknesses are beer and rice. Now if they could hook me up with some drug that makes me puke at the sight of beer or rice, then we'd be in business.

What totally cracks me up is one of the brand names for this puppy is "Kraftobese". With all the trouble I had trying to get into pharmaceutical marketing... to see the stupid names (and direct-to-consumer ads) some of their marketing minions come up with I am amazed they still have jobs, and I didn't get one in their big pharma suit lair.

wow. halfway through the day the legal speed is kicking in. I have cotton-mouth, palpitations, and presyncope.

05 Aug 2011

Ok it's day 2. BTW tables *fucking suck* in Blogger. I struggled with this and finally uploaded it as a picture. I can't believe they don't have any pre-fab charts in there so I don't have to do all of that <td> </td> garbage after every freakin' line of text. And when I copy-pasted from Excel, it purged all my formatting this time. And when I tried to use the table from yesterday, it wouldn't let me enter text. Fine. I'll edit the HTML - or not. Frankly, if Blogger is so crappy with tables, I'm just going to burden their server by uploading a picture of my table for every fracking day.

04 Aug 2011 - I'm not sure about this

It's only the first day and I'm not so sure about this hi protein lo fat dealio. The fat was what was keeping me satiated and without that, I'm still hungry after I eat and that is a little annoying. But it's worth a try and any amount of suffering and inconvenience I really should accept if it leads to my looking a little better. Frankly, I don't give a crap about if it makes me healthier or stronger or if it makes me live longer. It's all about looking good because that is all that matters in our society and for me to matter, I need to look good.

Time	calories	g Protein
7:00 AM	150-250	25-30
10:00 AM	60-160	10
1:00 PM	150-250	25
4:00 PM	60-160	10
7:00 PM	300-400	35
9:30 PM	60-160	10
12:00 AM	60-160	10

Time	food	g Protein	Calories	g Carb
8:30 am	1 egg almond flour 1 tsp butter total:	6 6  0 12g	71 145 33 249	0.4 1.0 0 1.4g
11:45 am	4 oz salmon 8 blueberries total:	28 0  28g	200 6 206	0 1.3 1.3g
2 pm	4.5oz turkey deli slices	20g	125	3g
4 pm	4.5 oz turkey deli slices	20g	125	3g
6-7 pm	8 almonds 1 cup radish sprouts 4 oz salmon 1 shot tequila	.2g 1g 28g 0g	48 16 200 97	0.1g 1g 0g 14g*
11:00 pm	1 really nasty gelatin drink 3 small jalapenos	15g 0g	60 0	2g 0g
Total		124.2g	1157	25.8

*note: I'm counting alcohol grams as carbs

03 Aug 2011 - ok let's try this again

Over the past couple weeks the combination of being really demoralized from gaining half the weight back I lost over 50 days back again in only 10 and that I have 5 separate groups of friends all of which are suddenly wanting to socialize with me over food and much drink now that I am going to be leaving for New York -- I have not been one for continuing with documenting my food intake. Why bother? I'm a fat fuck who is going to stay a fat fuck for life evidently. My body's against me, my social circles are against me, my crazy crazy hectic life is against me.

But now I have some renewed inspiration. I scheduled an appointment for the third at Swedish Weightloss Center with Dr. Lindquist. He came recommended by Dr. Eades, which is a five-star seal of approval in my books. I went to the appointment feeling drunk on hypoglycemia because I literally had *no time* to eat once I had forgotten to eat breakfast and I have no snacks in the house because I haven't had time for grocery shopping -- started my homework at 4:30AM, worked on it until 8:30, drove to class, worked on my homework in class, turned in my homework after class, drove like a bat out of hell up to Swedish and there ya go. By the time I had a second to eat, it was 3:00PM -- and it was a low carb kibble sample in the office. - oh - and a lemony calcium citrate chewy snak - waaaaaaay to sweeet :-&

Anyhoo, the skinny of what I learned from the visit is:

(a) I am fat fat super fat uber fat teh water rat - but like I didn't know that;
(b) I've lost an inch in height over the past 2 years (??);
(c) My target calories are too high;
(d) I need to eat a lot less more often; and
(e) I'm not eating enough protein

So I'm changing the diet parameters listed in the header. I know this is the 'going away' time for me and I'm going to have to fend off saboteurs, one of them being my own penchant for IPAs and sushi - but I will allow two formally sanctioned days for cheating between now and when I leave on the 25th.

So here's what I ate on the 3rd:
(AM) - orange creme flavored water (0g, 0cal)
(3PM) - salty lo carb kibbles n' bits (thank goodness I was super hungry because they wouldve been even more terrible if I weren't) (cal, carb unk)
       - sweet chewy lemony Ca-citrate snax (see note above)
(6PM) - Ninkasi Total Domination IPA (18g, 280cal)
(9PM) - 1 small zucchini (2g, 10cal)
 -3 oz pork (0g, 300cal)
orange creme flavored water
(12PM) - 1 small zucchini (2g, 10cal)
-3 oz pork (0g, 300cal)
orange creme flavored water

total: 900cal + kibble calories
22g carb + kibble carbs

29 July 2011

Breakfast:
1 egg (0.4g, 80cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1 tbsp coconut oil/butter (0g, 120cal)
2cups hibiscus tea w/sweet n low (.5g, 4cal)

28 July 2011

It was bad when I weighed myself after New York but I got the courage to weigh myself again.
I'm 7.2 pounds down - so my 10 days or so of regular carb =almost 4 pounds gained. Unbelievable. I'm looking into whether the HCG diet can be added into what I am doing - it sounds like that is a much lower calorie diet but if it works, it works. I would just be bummed about not having booze for 42 days.

Breakfast
1 egg (0.4g, 80cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
tea with cream (0g, 50cal)
1 tsp coconut oil (0g, 40cal)

Lunch
3oz pork roast (0g, 300cal)
tea with half and half (2g, 40cal)

Snack
2 tbsp almond butter (2g, 200cal)

Snack
1 Mr. Goodbar mini (3g, 42cal)
1 Reese's mini peanut butter cup (5g, 42cal)

Dinner
4 small zucchinis (4g, 42cal)
1 egg (0.4g, 80cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1 tbsp coconut oil/butter (0g, 120cal)

1 shot tequila (0g, 120cal)

1446 cal
18.8g carb

27 July 2011 - let's try this again.

Breakfast
Tea with cream (1g, 50cal)
1 egg (0.4g, 80cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)

Snack
mondo slim jim (3g, 300cal)
orange diet rockstar (2g, 20cal)
small green pepper (2.5g, 13cal)

Lunch
small green pepper (2.5g, 13cal)
3oz pork rib (0g, 300cal)

Dinner
1 egg (0.4g, 80cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1tsp butter (0g, 33cal)

1 shot whiskey

13.8g carb
1299cal

26 July 2011 - Failed Re-Start

Breakfast
17 potato chips. wow we're off to a good start here...

Lunch
Tea with cream (2g, 40cal)
mondo Slim Jim (3g, 300cal)

Gave blood - synchronicity is abounding. The woman at the snack table was doing kumihimo -- one of my backburner projects -- I braided for a bit while I was there and this may be proper inspiration for me to take that along as a drive-across-the-country project
1 can V-8

Dinner
5oz pork steak (0g, 500cal)
1/4c cashews

Got invited out for drinks...
1 Guinness
1 Alaskan Brewing Co. Double Black IPA
3 shots whiskey
sigh. really not good considering I gave blood today. double sigh. I can hardly wait until the sparkle of leaving wears off so people are not inclined to buy me drinks because I can't say no to a good microbrew... or a good whiskey.

Snack
1/4c almond flour
1 egg

Stepping Back on the Wagon - Day1

I got the job!!! by the way, airports SUCK for low carb. That was where my slippery slide to carb hell started. So after taking the last 10 days off it's time for me to step back on the wagon. I've managed to gain roughly half the weight I lost over 40 days back in 10 days and it's really frustrating. It's not like I was being a total pig either. I will write down what I kept track of but I'm just writing off the last 10 days and starting over.

Here's a summary of what I ate - well, what I can remember, based on my scrawling figures down in my little notebook.
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General Diet Commentary

I'm noticing some general patterns with this diet. First, as my life has gotten more hectic and ridiculous (i.e. full-time job, interviewing for another job, submitting materials for yet another job, 5 credit accelerated programming class, trying to have a semblance of a social life) I've gotten a bit lax on the diet. Specifically, too high a consumption of alcohol, nuts, and cheese. Additionally, I've been adding small amounts of chocolate which is unusual because I'm not really a chocolate person and because I don't normally crave sweets. All of this is not ideal because alcohol, nuts, and cheese are inflammatory and the alcohol is sapping my energy and the alcohol and chocolate are most likely slowing weight loss. I will continue to 'dial-it-in' on the low carb most likely until Tuesday, however, because tomorrow I drive up to Vancouver to see Doug Stanhope (one of the best comedians *evar*) and Monday I fly to New York for an interview (!!).

15 July 2011 - Day 54

AM Metabosol

Breakfast
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1 egg (0.4g, 75cal)
1/4tsp vanilla (0g, 0cal)
4 drops stevia (0g, 0cal)

Snack
24oz lemonade Rockstar (3g, 30cal)
Tabasco Slim Jim (2g, 50cal)

Lunch
24oz lemonade Rockstar (3g, 30cal)
4 oz salami (1g, 400cal)
milk chocolate Lindor truffle (5g, 73.3cal)

Dinner
1/2c almond flour (2g, 290cal)
2 eggs (0.8g, 150cal)
1/2tsp vanilla (0g, 0g)
8 drops stevia (0g, 0cal)
1 shot scotch (0g, 120cal)

17.2g carb
1363.3 cal

14 July 2011 - Day 53

crapp I'm falling behind on this!

side note: I'm getting tendonitis now in *both* wrists so it's hurting to type. I just ordered a new mouse because the pain/tingling/numbness are getting really bad. It's from doing waaay too much content analysis with a failing mouse where both buttons are *really* hard to click. I googled it and found out this is a symptom of the springs wearing out. I swapped my mouse out with the new one from the student desk (budget cuts = no student worker over the summer) and that mouse is a whisper lite clicking extravaganza! The bad thing is that my wrists are still on fire and I need to baby them. Anyhow. Enough excuses. Here's my food log from yesterday.

AM Metabosol

Breakfast:
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1 egg (0.4g, 75cal)
4 drops stevia (0g, 0cal)
1/4tsp vanilla (0g, 0cal)
tea with cardamom & half and half (2g, 40cal)

AM Supplements

Lunch
4oz pork ribs (0g, 400cal)
1 pickle (2g, 16cal)
1 cup radish sprouts (1.4g, 16cal)

Snack
Justin's classic almond butter, 32g (2g, 200cal)

Dinner
Italian wedding soup
-4c chicken broth (4g, 20cal)
-1c frozen spinach (2g, 30cal)
-4oz pork sausage (0g, 300cal)
 
3 shots whiskey (0g, 360cal)
2 michelob ultras (5.2g, 190cal)
I realized I'm self-medicating because the whiskey is dulling the pain from my wrists. Maybe I need to take the healthier (and less tasty) route of ibuprofen.

1792cal
19g carb

13 July 2011 - Day 52

Happy Birthday Jenny! :-)


I'm a little behind on posting calorie counts because of my job search - I'll add them in as I can
 Not to mention it, I'm out of usable lunch foods in the house so I need to take care of that asap. Being hungry at work where there is a whole host of crappy food is the fast track to my cheating on this diet

AM Metabosol 7:45AM

1 tbsp peanut butter (2g, 100cal)

AM Supplements (8:40AM)

1 Tabasco Slim Jim (2g, 150cal)
1 Monster Lo-Carb (2g, 20cal)

salami (1g, 400cal)
1 Monster Lo-Carb (2g, 20cal)
1 pickle

8 oz salmon (0g, 400cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1 egg (0.4g, 75cal)

3 michelob ultras (7.8g, 285cal)

1595 cal
18.2g carb

12 July 2011 - Day 51

Breakfast
4 oz salmon (0g, 200cal)
1 egg (0.4g, 75cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
2 tbsp peanut butter (4g, 200cal)

Lunch
6 oz pork rescue (2.2g, 208cal)
1 oz guacamole (2g, 80cal)
2 cups sprouts (2.8g, 32cal)

Dinner
1 egg (0.4g, 75cal)
1/4c almond flour (0.4g, 75cal)
2 tbsp peanut butter (4g, 200cal)
2 shots whiskey (0g, 240cal)

1 shot whiskey (0g, 120cal)

17.2g carb
1650 cal

11 July 2011 - Day 50

AM Metabosol

2 cups jasmine tea (0g, 0cal)

AM supplements

6 oz slightly dodgy salmon (0g, 300cal)

Snack
12oz breve with 2 shots (15g, 400cal)
Justin's classic almond butter, 32g (2g, 200cal)

Dinner
pork with scallions (2.2g, 208cal)
2 shots whiskey (0g, 240cal)

1348cal
19.2g carb

10 July 2011 - Day 49 [cheat day]

AM Metabosol

2 cups jasmine tea (0g, 0cal)

AM Supplements

omelet
-3eggs? (1.2g, 225cal)
-2oz cheese? (2g, 200cal)
-2oz random meaty bits? (2g, 200cal)
veggies
-2 slices tomato (2g, 10cal)
-broccoli (2,5g, 21cal)
whiskey and diet coke (0g, 120cal)
whiskey and water (0g, 120cal)
total domination (18g, 280cal)

Lunch:
Korean BBQ
-beef brisket (0g, 500cal)
-shrimp (1.5g, 200cal)
-kimchee (5g, 30cal)
-bean sprouts (1g, 11cal)
-~1oz seitan (2.5g, 40cal)
-bean paste (9g, 40cal)
-oil with salt (0g, 100cal)

"Dinner" , well sorta
5 sugarfree turtles (5g, 400cal)
1 fig "cookie", the cookie part mostly removed, 'cuz it was gross - the fig part was good tho'
2 tbsp peanut butter (4g, 200cal)
1 cup radish sprouts (1.4g, 16cal)

2713cal (wow!)
57.1g carb (still waiting on cookie stats)

09 July 2011 - Day 48

Yay! I'm offiially in the two-digit range! I'm down 10 pounds - not bad for a month and a half. I checked and I'm seemingly out of ketosis.

AM Metabosol

Breakfast
6oz hamburger (0g, 350cal)
2oz gorgonzola (0.8g, 200cal)
4 cloves garlic (3.6g, 16cal)

16oz Bojenmi tea (0g, 0cal)
tea with half and half (2g, 40cal)

Lunch:
4oz hamburger (0g, 250cal)
1oz gorgonzola (0.4g, 100cal)
2 tbsp peanut butter (4g, 200cal)
1L flavored water (0g, 0cal)

Dinner:
1 egg (.61, 84cal)
1/4c almond flour (1g, 145cal)
2 tbsp peanut butter (4g, 200cal)
tea with half and half (2g, 40cal)

Snack:
tea with half and half (2g, 40cal)
1 tbsp peanut butter (2g, 100cal)

a little heavy on nuts
21.4g carb
1765 cal

08 July 2011 - Day 47

AM Supplements

Breakfast:
6 oz pork rescue project
-pork roast (0g, 200cal)
-scallions (2.2g, 8cal)
tea with half and half (2g, 40cal)

AM Metabosol

Snack

2 diet rockstars (6g, 60cal)
Tabasco slim jim (2g, 150cal)

Lunch
5oz steak (0g, 301cal)
tea with half and half (2g, 40cal)

AM Metabosol

Dinner
2oz gorgonzola (0.8g, 200cal)
4 oz salmon (0g, 250cal)

snack
1 tbsp brewer's yeast (3g, 60cal)
1qt Bonjenmi tea (0g, 0cal)
4 cloves raw garlic (3.6g, 16cal)

2 shots whiskey (0g, 240cal)

21.6g
1565 cal

07 July 2011 - Day 46

AM Metabosol

Breakfast:
6oz pork rescue project
-pork roast (0g, 200cal)
-scallions (2.2g, 8cal)
orange creme flavored water (0g, 0cal)

AM supplements

Snack
4 deviled eggs (1.2g, 104cal)
1/2c radish sprouts (0.7g, 8cal)

Lunch
4 oz steak (0g, 250cal)
Justin's classic almond butter, 32g (2g, 200cal)

Dinner

6 oz salmon (0g, 375cal)
2 oz gorgonzola (0.8g, 200cal)
1 qt Bojenmi tea (0g, 0cal)

2 shots whiskey (0g, 240cal)

6.9g (!)

1585cal

06 July 2011 - Day 45

Breakfast:
1/4c. almond flour (1g, 145cal)
1 egg (1g, 75cal)
1 tsp butter (0g, 33cal)
black tea with cardamom & half and half (2g, 40cal)

Lunch:
5 deviled eggs (1.5g, 255cal)
1/2cup radish sprouts (0.7g, 8cal)
1 oz salmon (0g, 57cal)
16oz water
black tea with cream (2g, 40cal)

45 min walk on campus

1 slice smoked cheddar with peppercorns (0.5g, 80cal)
1 oz gorgonzola (0.5g, 100cal)
8 oz salmon (0g, 454cal)
1 tsp coconut oil (0g, 40cal)
orange creme flavored water (0g, 0cal)
2 shots scotch (0g, 240cal)

9.2g carb
1567cal (a little better than yesterday...)